I gotta tell ya, that A LOT has changed. I'm not sure where to begin.
In my last entry it was the beginning of 2011 and I was hoping that life would be better and it has.
The beginning of the year was great! I was playing basketball again, I was hanging out with all my friends who I've missed... life was simple but good. I was going into the year in a positive view. I was determined to be happy.
The first half of the year I was out a lot. I was mostly with my friend Apy, since her BF lived in Toronto and I was still single. Here and there I would hang out with my friend Rob who was still heartbroken over his breakup the previous summer. I tried to give him as much advice as I could and tell him that things will get better if he could jus let it go and move on. Every conversation with him was him venting out the situation. When he told me the whole story, I was kinda surprised and don't blame him for how he felt. I was dealing with my own feeling for someone but I knew deep down that it wasn't going to work out. The one thing I got out of my situation was there there are genuinely nice guys out there. I had been surrounding myself with douches for so long that I can't tell you how much I've overlooked the Nice guys that could really make me truly happy.
So remember I mentioned my friend Apy? Well her BF came to visit and I really didn't want to be 3rd wheel. So I've asked Rob to join us most of the time. It was really nice. Rob and Apy's BF really got along and it was great for the 4 of us hanging out. I guess this is how life started to change for me. I started seeing Rob in a different light. Everyone in the past 5 years had been bugging us to hook up but I always laughed at the idea. Rob was one of my closest friend's younger brother and I thought it would be weird. What if it didn't work out? I didn't want to make it awkward, plus I honestly thought I was doing HIM a favor because I truly believed that he deserved someone better than me.
I won't go into too much detail, but I said screw it. Lets see what happens. I made the first move on him and see if he would make a move back. He did.
On July 1st,2011 - we had previously planned for a group of us to go to Em & Rob's Aunt's cabin for Canada Day weekend. I had no one to go with and I was planning to drive by myself. Rob asked if he could go with me then. On the Drive there, we had a talk about Us. He told me that he wants us to be together. I was hesitant to say yes at first because again, in my head, he was my friend's brother. It didn't seem to bother him. My biggest worry was that what if it didn't work. There was so many people that wanted us to be together and if they knew it would cause more pressure and it would be trying to please them rather than figuring out if we were compatible.
So we made the agreement that we wouldn't tell people we were together until we knew ourselves that it was going to workout.
After a month of us "secretly" being together, we still weren't telling people. But EVERYONE seemed to be bugging us even more to be together (more than usual). We both laughed when no one was looking and we kept ignoring them. I still wasn't sure until we went on our first road trip together. We went to my favorite city, CHICAGO!
If we could last in a car, jus the 2 of us for more than 10 hours and not want to kill each other... Then it was a good sign. I even told him that a Road trip of more than 4 hours is my test if I can really have a person in my life for a long time(Friends or BF). He passed with flying colors!!
At this point, I had asked him when we can start telling people. At first, he said he wanted to wait after 2 months. So I asked him again when it was about 4-5weeks. He told me that I could tell ppl if I wanted to, but he wanted to be the first to tell his sister. So I wanted certain peopled to know before others and I wanted them to know personally from either Rob or myself. Mostly close friends and family first and then everyone else could jus find out word of mouth.
I had told my sister and my guy bff first and Rob told his sister. I wanted to know what she said. She emailed me soon after he told her and she was happy but wondered why we waited 6 weeks to tell her. Once we told everyone we wanted in person, they all understood why we kept it a secret for so long.
It was the strangest thing telling people. They all congratulated us like it was a big deal. I guess it was but it's not like we were getting married. Hahaha.
Since then we've been happy. It has now been 8.5 months we've been together. We've had a few ups and downs but we know the importance of communication and patience. Overall, I can say that I've never been happier! Do I miss being single?? NO WAY! LOL. I've lived out my single life to the very extent of it and I don't regret (much) of that life because what I've learned has brought me to where I am today.
Being in a relationship has been (for a lack of words) different. Being single for so long has made me think if I know how to be in a real relationship. Prior to this one my last one wasn't really official by any means so could I say it was a relationship? I thought it was at the time. Anyways, we've had our great moments of "Firsts" along the way. First Roadtrip, First Camping Trip, First Christmas, First New Years... etc, etc. Since my love life has now improved, it was also about time that I do something about my current position at work.
To keep it short from an already long blog entry.. You are looking at the New Account Manager! Needless to say my life has really gotten better.. and can only get better from here! Now what awaits for me??... guess we'll have to wait and see..........
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